Guilt.

I can't get over the GPS (guilty parent syndrome).
I feel like it's all my fault that he had to go through it.

I guess there is really no way to know for sure if it's anything I did or didn't do.

Planned or not, it's hard to prepare yourself to put all that trust into a doctor, someone who sees him as another patient, not my child.

All the unknowns and what ifs.  I hate the what ifs - they take over my life.


but in the end it was all okay.
and all the worrying was for nothing.




but the guilt probably will never go away.