(and call, Skype and write you silly little emails every single day).

This seems so wrong.

but I know it's the best decision...for both of us. 

I have been spending a lot of time with EVILBOY.  Next weekend he will be off to stay with his grandmother for the whole summer (minus two weeks in August and a few weekends here and there).


It really wasn't a hard decision for me.  My mother offered to take him for the summer and I had to accept.  This will help me greatly financially by not having to pay for childcare (although I'm sure with the extra trips to my mom's and the long distance phone calls it could easily come out equal).  My mom lives close to my whole family and it is important to me that EVILBOY has a relationship with my family.

It's not always easy because they all live at least two hours away.  EVILBOY will spend the summer with my mom, my aunts, my dad, my sister.  There will be cottages, amusement parks, and a crap load of interesting people to keep him entertained.  Something that I simply cannot offer if he were to stay here.

This will offer me a bit more freedom to control myself a little more.  Learn how I can fit a new regime in. I'm really not happy with the way things are right now, so hopefully this will give me time to figure out a new project or something to make me happier with who I have become.  

I know a lot of people do not agree with my decision.  Even sometimes I second guess myself, but if I didn't think this was for the best then I would not have agreed to it.

I just hope he comes back as the same kid

Do not go to the dark side EVILBOY!